Eric just left for a job interview. We really need for this to land. He's been out of a job for six months now and the only reason we haven't been evicted yet is because our tax returns took care of all that we owed and our landlord was very patient with us. If Eric doesn't start work soon though, we'll just sink right back down.
I don't want to be poor anymore! I don't want to have to triage the laundry because we can't afford to do all of it. I don't want our phone to be out of service until my next paycheck. I don't want to have to tell my kids "No," because we don't have the cash for the ice cream truck, or a carnival game, or whatever. I know that there are plenty of free things to do in the spring and summer time, and we do enjoy those. Sometimes those little extras, that dollar or two, make such a big difference though.
We don't need much to skate by. We do get food stamps, and I am very grateful for that, but what I'm bringing home a month wouldn't cover rent even if we didn't have to worry about electric, doing laundry in coin-op machines, detergent, body wash, shampoo, diapers, toilet paper, cleaning supplies, etc etc etc. Plus, we are still paying $250/month for a car that doesn't work! Just having enough, every month, to pay all of our bills and restock the things we need would be great. I can't remember what it was like not to have to worry about those things. If there wasn't any extra I think I could deal with it as long as there was *enough*.
So I'm hoping. I hope Eric doesn't get caught in the rain walking from the bus stop to the place and end up looking like a wet dog. I hope his interview goes well. I hope if he gets this job he'll be able to start quickly. And I hope we'll be able to start climbing out of this hole.
So if anyone would like to send some prayers, positive vibes, good juju, or whatever in our direction, we'd appreciate it! We just really need to get our feet in the right direction here, so we can work our way back up.