Funk

I'm in a funk today.

There will be no Wordless Wednesday today because I still haven't gotten around to getting the old functional-but-losing-steam camera out.  There haven't been any new pictures in weeks.  Why is it that I have absolutely nothing to show for my birthday?  All the money I got from well wishing family members went straight to bills to make up for all of the work missed to attend the wedding and its functions.  My camera is gone, which was the coolest present I've had in a long time... ugh!

And I don't know why but Eric seems mad at me.  It rained allll day yesterday and I'm sure he was cranky about walking home in the storm.  Even with a big sturdy umbrella, the bottoms of his pants and his shoes were soaked through.  And when he walked in he caught me dozing on the couch.  "Rough day?" he asked me sarcastically.  I'm not Storm, it had nothing to do with me that it rained.  And it's not like I've never had to walk home in the pouring rain myself.  So what was I supposed to do with that?  Am I not allowed to take a catnap after the boys have had dinner?  I didn't get the memo.


After the boys were put to bed I spent the rest of the evening on the couch, reading for a little bit while he worked on some papers for school.  He didn't ask me for help like he usually does.  When I got tired of reading I napped some more.  Yes, at 9:30 I decided to nap some more.  It's a very rare night that I go to be without him.  If I'm tired I'll doze off until he wakes me up for bed..  He finished his papers, watched a little Netflix, all the while I'm in and out of sleep.  And then he got up, turned everything off, and left me on the couch without a word.

I stayed there all night.  When he woke up this morning to get ready for work, and Lucas came out and turned on the light, I scooped him up and slid into bed and snuggled into the still warm spot that Eric had been sleeping in.  Why was that the closest thing I had to touching him after 24 hours?  And tonight he has his lab course, so he won't be home until nearly 10. 


He was probably upset with the way our Wifi barely connects since we had to reset the computer.  He's been on me about calling the landlord and getting internet through him for an extra $35 added to our rent each month.  I'd kept putting it off because, hello! we still owe him back rent!  And in order to get this internet we'd have to sign another year lease.  Why would our landlord even want to offer it to us?  So I was really hesitant to call and ask.  Eric really does need a better, more reliable connection for school though, and he was getting upset with me for not calling.  So yesterday I finally did, but he didn't pick up.  I left a message so we'll see.  Instead of asking me last night if I'd called (I'd told him on Monday that I definitely would) he sat and brooded, just assuming that I hadn't. 

So yeah, today I'm in a funk.  Hopefully tonight is better.